I have been through some difficult moments in my life in the last few months as many of you are well aware. Some cut backs in ministry led me to resign from my church and some of my work as a chaplain. For three an a half months I have reflected rested and prayed for God's direction.
In John 21:15 the Lord spoke to Peter by the breakfast campfire as they finished a quick and simple meal. "Do you Love me?" The Lord said to Peter. Peter was on the spot. "Yes of course Lord." was his answer. But Jesus ask the question again. And then to really make the point to the man who had recently denied Jesus THREE times Jesus ask the question again. - I have been letting this soak into my brain for three months.
Let me make a statement. I LOVE The LORD JESUS.
More than anything else in this life I love the Lord and desire to serve Him. The time has come for me like Peter to step up and do what God has called me to do. Most of you know that I have a calling to work with Law Enforcement. I know that I have been blessed to touch many lives of the men and women who keep us safe everyday. I am ready to move forward with this task. But as I do so there are several issues.
- God must restore me to the right places to have access to these very special people. This is already happening and it is the work of the Lord. And this is also an obvious sign to me to go to work with a passion in this much needed area of Christian Ministry.
- Second I must have the faith that God is going to supply my needs of this ministry by faith.
- Third as prayer and financial support are needed, there must be a plan developed.
OK, so knowing this as I ate my fiber bar this morning The Lord ask me this question, "Do you love me?" I gave Peter's answer. And from the depth of my being I know it is true. The Lord is the only reason to do what I do. No matter what I do it is because of the Lord and the love I have for Him.
I am once again at a critical moment in life. Like Peter who was ask, " Do you love me more than these?" The these has always been a word that theologians argue about. Did the Lord mean more than the other disciples? Did he mean more than the work of fishing which was a comfortable place for Peter? Did he mean more than the simple life of eating breakfast and relaxing on the beach? Or did he just leave this statement a bit ambiguous; so that we could fill in the blank about the word these to mean whatever would hold us back from doing and being who God has called us to be.
For me I am trying my best to answer this question like Peter... "Lord you know all things, You know I love you." I think that the Lord has answered this question for me. He is saying this: "Feed my sheep, Scotty. But I want you to pay close attention to the blue ones!"